"When the orbits of these two satellites of ours happened to cross path,
we could be together.
Maybe even open our hearts to each other. But that was only for the briefest moment.
In the next instance we'd be in absolute solitude. Until we burned up and become nothing."

here i am at 1.48 am lighting up a rolled cigarette of wild honey flavor.
I breathe the night in and out, like how you taught me, under light emitted by an Ikea bulb.

Time is neatly segmented into lengths of songs in the playlist.
3:20, 4:12, 2:41..
Cat is lying right next to me on the pinwale stool. She sometimes will jump on my nap, sniff a circle, and rest her head so silently on the hairy part of my thigh. Then all of a sudden, she will get up and move off as if something really important pops up in her mind that she really has to handle at once.

People at 2am usually do things personal & private.
Somewhere, A broken hearted may be downing the fifth glass of scotch listening to his 7th lonely jazz album.
A youth may be totally absorbed into the plots of the book, which he's just got in a second hard bookstore.
Lovers may be dissolving into the warmth between their bodies.
Solemn, that's the beauty of midnights.

thro the skylight

It looks like
Someone up above
broke the thermomether
Spilling droplets of mercury everywhere

Every choice of word signifies a state of mind.
They shape up, shapes.
Every breath dissolves the air in the room.
We keep inhaling, air.

Every small thought about you piles up.
From the height I am watching, i smell the tendency to fall.

Every moment of love should imitate a car crash.

"I've slammed the brakes,
and i'm skidding towards an emotional impact."

Or it should be like tapping a broken jazz ballad.
Self-assured, and dwell in my own little rhythm.

And then people write about romance, make love movies, and then draw their little desires back to a little safe boxes in their hearts for their own appreciations.

Not many can bear the sadness impossible love brings.

Neither do I.

Missing you is tougher than i thought.